Losing control.

        "Right then, with the realisation that no one knew the truth about my life, my thoughts about the world were shaken.
        Like driving along a bumpy road and losing control of the steering wheel, tossing you – just a tad – off the road. The wheels kick up some dirt, but you're able to pull it back. Yet no matter how tightly you grip the wheel, no matter how hard you try to drive straight, something keeps jerking you to the side. You have so little control over anything anymore."

– Jay Asher, Th1rteen R3asons Why 
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