Teenagers.

"When adults say, "Teenagers think they are invincible" with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don't know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail."
- John Green, Looking for Alaska

Perhaps.

I was watching a film today and it made me wonder, why do we get so attached to the fictional characters we meet? Whether it be films, books, plays, is there something within each and every character that we can relate to ourselves?

This in turn would mean that we all have something between ourselves and every person we meet in reality which is relatable. Whether its a fear of spiders, a longing to be left alone, a need to have someone to love, the avoidance of reality... there is something, always something that we can relate to another. So why then, is there such lack of understanding in society?

Perhaps if we could find the things that bind us to other people, rather than focus on the things that keep us apart, we'd be happier beings, with something more fulfilling in our lives than scorn and hatred. But perhaps that's just a Great Perhaps...

Muffins.

So I'm just recovering from my first near-death experience... Okay, perhaps that's a bit over-dramatic, but it was the most scared I've ever been in my life and death seemed a almost likely. I ate chicken for dinner, and I swallowed a bone which then proceeded to block my breathing passage and induce an anxiety attack. I'm okay now, but it made me realise how easily life can catch you off guard.

If you were to die tomorrow, would you be happy with everything you have achieved? The kind of person you were? Even the thought of not having a future to be part of is so scary. the chance to do all that you had hoped to through life. I know I wasn't going to die tonight, but it made me realise how lucky I am to have life to look forward to... and life seems different now. It's like it's put things into perspective. Okay, I may seem a bit over-dramatic again, but I'm sure you know what I mean.

That aspect made me think of the play I went to today. It's called The Grenade, and it's about a grenade that a family finds in their house (with the pin in of course) and they try to determine who planted it. In one of the scenes, Randy pulls the pin from the grenade, still clasping shut the release. The other two characters who are in the room eating muffins back off hurriedly, scared for their lives, threatened by the idea of death.

When Randy puts the pin back in place, the others take a sigh of relief, being given back their chance of Future, and the muffins they had been eating tastes a thousand times better. That's what I'm saying... But why can't muffins taste that amazing every day?

Shouldn't we just appreciate life as we are, and realise how lucky we are to have Futures to look forward to? We have to savour every muffin life throws at us.

Sorry.

Apologies for a lack of posts in the past week. One might assume that posting here was slightly a result of the need to procrastinate during my HSC time.. but no, it's not just that, and so I promise I'll continue through my awesomely ginormous holidays! :)

I've been planning my 18th party since the end of my HSC.. so lots to do! I have to go make my costume right now, but cross my heart I'll write something actually worth reading next time haha. Or try to anyway!

To all those who just finished HSC.. WOOOO! It's finally over. Congrats on making it through! Now for the BEST SUMMER OF OUR LIVES. ;)

I am free.

AT LAST ! :)

It feels so great not to have to stress about anything anymore... besides about the results of course. But I'll deal with that when it comes to it. All I need to worry about now is getting through my list of awesome things to do during my holidays (shall fill you in on that soon). And! I get to read books without having to analyse them. Awesome much? Very.

The countdown. An update.

39 days since graduation.
18 days since my 18th birthday.
18 days since the start of HSC.

1 day until FREEDOM. :)
25 days until formal.
30 days until the best Summer of my life.
45 days until I find out my HSC results.
46 days until I find out my ATAR results.
57 days until the Canadians come to visit. :)
61 days until the new year.